What am I Trying to Say?

That’s the question I ask myself a lot. Do you ever get that feeling? You have this thought that you want to share and for some reason you can’t express it. it becomes difficult to describe and then suddenly you’re rambling random shit that doesn’t make sense whit your original idea and now you’re stuck.

This happens a lot to me, but after rambling, I just freeze with a look of utter confusion. I end up looking like a person who just snapped out of a weird trance. like what my face looks like now.


I got an ARC thanks to Netgalley and Disney Book Group, but my opinions on this book are entirely my own.

A List of Cages is told in two POV’s, Adam and Julian’s, you get to know their lives and how their friendship works. Here’s the book description:

“When Adam Blake lands the best elective ever in his senior year, serving as an aide to the school psychologist, he thinks he’s got it made. Sure, it means a lot of sitting around, which isn’t easy for a guy with ADHD, but he can’t complain, since he gets to spend the period texting all his friends. Then the doctor asks him to track down the troubled freshman who keeps dodging her, and Adam discovers that the boy is Julian–the foster brother he hasn’t seen in five years. Adam is ecstatic to be reunited. At first, Julian seems like the boy he once knew. He’s still kind hearted. He still writes stories and loves picture books meant for little kids. But as they spend more time together, Adam realizes that Julian is keeping secrets, like where he hides during the middle of the day, and what’s really going on inside his house. Adam is determined to help him, but his involvement could cost both boys their lives. First-time novelist Robin Roe relied on life experience when writing this exquisite, gripping story featuring two lionhearted characters.”

THIS BOOK MADE ME CRY LOADS, like from chapter 10 till the end. I couldn’t handle all the feels. Robin Roe made them so relatable and lovable that you just want to hug Adam and Julian forever. The writing style is quick and the story does not slow down. the story brings you to a rocky boat ride. There’s emotion in every page, some good, some bad, but feels all around. It did not stop, but that’s the best thing about the book, it holds you and it runs its hands down your back- making you cry while soothing you.

It makes me swell with so much love for the two main characters. Robin Roe made them real and I can’t say that about every author.


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2016 With Mysterium

So 2016 was a great year for me (except all the current events that made me feel all the feels) and a big chunk of that is because of Mysterium Philippines!

I was always fascinated by Tarot, mostly because I thought a deck of illustrated cards could tell me my future and shit; all thanks to all the horror movies I watched when I was younger. So when I was able to buy my own deck, I tried to learn tarot with the help of YouTube and a bunch of blogs.

I tried learning about tarot and I didn’t know my limitations. I needed someone to guide me and thankfully I found Mysterium.

I started May 2016 through their distance tarot program. I didn’t live far away, but I’m a lazy girl so I didn’t want to leave my fortress hahaha. It’s a six week course, one suit per week. I was given homework to do and I had to submit them at the end of every week. It was amazing, but I wanted to go the center to finally learn (and meet) from Sir Rob. OMG it wasn’t as different learning from the center and learning from your own home,  Sir Rob would answer all my questions (because I’m a worrier.) and would be so understanding of everyone.

Suffice to say after learning at the Mysterium center for one day… I liked it better because I like learning with classmates and getting to give each other tips and tricks also new friends!!! By the time we finished the Introduction to Tarot course, I signed up for multiple classes for the coming months.

A rundown of the courses I took:

  • Intro to Tarot- a six-week course. Learning with all the tarot basics plus you get to earn money while taking the course. It legit tells you that Tarot IS JUST A GUIDE. You make your own future. Mysterium tells its Tarot students to empower their clients and to never doom them to a future they don’t want.
  • Intuitive awakenings -want to enhance or “open your third eye.” You get a rundown on chakras, auras, and how to connect to your intuitive side. You’ll learn how to see, hear, feel, or see things you don’t normally see, oh and how you can ignore them when you want to.
  • Tarot for Self Discovery- a whole day workshop. It helps you use tarot to talk to your unconscious. *bring tissues, you might cry.
  • Advanced Tarot -a lot like Tarot for Self Discovery but it introduces new ways to use tarot besides just reading it. *pre- req intro to tarot. 7 week course.
  • Advanced Intuitive Awakening- you watched Doctor Strange? it’s kinda like that. you learn about astral projection. *drink lots of water and get lots of rest it’s a bit tiring.
  • Seraphim Blueprint level 1- the first in the Philippines (THANK YOU, SARAH!) a healing modality that works with angels. It’s a whole day thing with lots of meditation/attunements. *no coffee before class and drink lot of water in between.
  • Reiki 1- an intro and an attunement of one of the most popular energy healing modalities. It teaches how to channel energy for self-healing and healing for others. * drink lots of water between the breaks.

Sir Rob is hilarious and frank. He would tease us if we asked weird questions, but he would answer them and then he would tell us his experiences. He’s been reading the tarot for more than 20 years, so he has a lot to share with us. He became a friend to all of us as well. He would encourage us to start our own tarot business and damn right he would help you too if you have problems.

Ma’am Sarah is different from Sir Rob, she’s absolutely caring and sweet. My first class with her was Seraphim Blueprint level 1. To see someone as passionate in helping and healing other people,  she gave me the reason to look into energy healing. She showed me how compassion and empathy connects us all. She’s like the mom of Mysterium.

*btw Sir Rob and Ma’am Sarah are married to each other. Such a beautiful couple. Love emojis!!!

Mysterium Philippines is a great esoteric learning center, you get teachers who are legit supportive and you get to meet people with the same interests while learning. I felt so accepted and I made new friends. They made my 2016 the best.

contact Mysterium here:



Mysterium Philippines Learning Center
Mezzanine Unit, Burgundy Place Condominium
Katipunan Ave., Cor. B. Gonzales St., Quezon City



If you want to get to know me or whatever please be informed by the following:

*Even if we spend time together for years, please know that I’m keeping secrets from you.

*I’m allergic to Mushrooms

*I can be emotional… sometimes.

*I will apologize for everything and anything.

*I have walls around me 24/7. They collapse every now and then.**

*I really like pizza.

Here’s your guide.


** If you’re the kind of person that can break people’s walls… Fuck you and good for you. Use that well, don’t be an asshole.


Fifty Shades of Curiosity

I read the book, I liked it at first (got bored during most of the sex parts, so I skipped some of them), but then I realized Christian Grey is a bad boyfriend. Not because of the BDSM, but the parts when he gets possessive of Anastasia. I’m curious about why do a lot of people like him? like what is it with this character? Is it the bad boy type thing? I’m really curious, I wanna know why people like Christian Grey!!

I’m also curious about the movie, some people said that the movie stressed about Anastasia’s consent…so that’s a good thing. Is the movie worth watching???

Let me know down in the comments! =)

The Younger Gods by Michael R. Underwood ~GIVEAWAY~

This is my review AND a Giveaway!!

I COULD’NT PUT THIS BOOK DOWN!!! OH MY GOODNESS I LOVED IT A LOT!! The Younger Gods reminded me of Benedict Cumberbatch’s Sherlock but instead of solving crimes he does sorcery. I love how the author, Michael R. Underwood, made Jacob Greene and the scenery of New York real. When I was reading this, I could see Jacob fighting monsters and trying to learn more about New York.

I’m going to be real honest here… The book will stress you out. Why? Because of the fast-paced storytelling and the fight scenes!! LIKE YOU WOULD PUT IT DOWN FOR A WHILE AND GO “Oh my goodness… What? Why? Oh dear God, Jacob!” It literally puts you in Jacob’s POV. I really enjoyed this book. I wish I could just describe how amazing it is.

More about the book:

Jacob Greene was a sweet boy raised by a loving, tight-knit familyof cultists. He always obeyed, and was so trusted by them that he was the one they sent out on their monthly supply run (food, medicine, pig fetuses, etc.).

Finding himself betrayed by them, he flees the family’s sequestered compound and enters the true unknown: college in New York City. It’s a very foreign place, the normal world and St. Mark’s University. But Jacob’s looking for a purpose in life, a way to understand people, and a future that breaks from his less-than-perfect past. However, when his estranged sister arrives in town to kick off the apocalypse, Jacob realizes that if he doesn’t gather allies and stop the family’s prophecy of destruction from coming true, nobody else will.

More about the Author:

Michael R. Underwood is the author of Geekomancy, Celebromancy, Attack the Geek, Shield and Crocus, and The Younger Gods. By day, he’s the North American Sales & Marketing Manager for Angry Robot Books. Mike grew up devouring stories in all forms, from comics to video games, tabletop RPGs, movies, and books. He has a BA in Creative Mythology and East Asian Studies, and an MA in Folklore Studies. Mike has been a bookseller, a barista, a game store cashwrap monkey, and an independent publishers’ representative. Mike lives in Baltimore with his fiancée, an ever-growing library, and a super-team of dinosaur figurines and stuffed animals. He is also a co-host on the Hugo-nominated Skiffy and Fanty Show. In his rapidly vanishing free time, Mike studies historical martial arts and makes homemade pizza. He blogs at MichaelRUnderwood.com/blog and Tweets @MikeRUnderwood.

m very excited to announce that Michael R. Underwood is very generous and offered to give two (2) digital copies of his book, The Younger Gods! To enter just follow the steps listed in the Rafflecopter link.

*this giveaway is open to U.S residents only

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Super Late Night Thoughts

Why does the media often de-humanize people?  Media always ALWAYS does this, whether it’s about a corrupt politician, a murderer, a vigilante, etc. Media nowadays deliver news that are sensationalized. They don’t deliver news in an objective perspective, it is always subjective. Is it because most media outlets are owned by private sectors? or did something happen to the news writers’ heads? Are the high ratings and the big advertisers worth more than delivering the truth? I ask more questions than I get answers. but seriously though, why?


All of this is true. Thank you for writing it.

in transit


Because all women have walked to their car in the dark, keys clutched tight in hand, one poking out between two fingers.

Because when I go out to bars or clubs, I have to think about whether what I’m wearing is too suggestive, instead of putting on whatever I please.

Because I feel the need to apologize when I’m not wearing makeup or my hair hasn’t been washed, or when I’m generally looking anything other than flawless.

Because there was nothing I could do about the man who touched me inappropriately in the middle of Gillette Stadium as I waited for my then-boyfriend to come out of the bathroom. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STADIUM.

Because there was also nothing I could do when a man touched me inappropriately in the middle of a crowded street, his arm around his girlfriend. Because retaliating in the way I wanted to…

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