2016 With Mysterium

So 2016 was a great year for me (except all the current events that made me feel all the feels) and a big chunk of that is because of Mysterium Philippines!

I was always fascinated by Tarot, mostly because I thought a deck of illustrated cards could tell me my future and shit; all thanks to all the horror movies I watched when I was younger. So when I was able to buy my own deck, I tried to learn tarot with the help of YouTube and a bunch of blogs.

I tried learning about tarot and I didn’t know my limitations. I needed someone to guide me and thankfully I found Mysterium.

I started May 2016 through their distance tarot program. I didn’t live far away, but I’m a lazy girl so I didn’t want to leave my fortress hahaha. It’s a six week course, one suit per week. I was given homework to do and I had to submit them at the end of every week. It was amazing, but I wanted to go the center to finally learn (and meet) from Sir Rob. OMG it wasn’t as different learning from the center and learning from your own home,  Sir Rob would answer all my questions (because I’m a worrier.) and would be so understanding of everyone.

Suffice to say after learning at the Mysterium center for one day… I liked it better because I like learning with classmates and getting to give each other tips and tricks also new friends!!! By the time we finished the Introduction to Tarot course, I signed up for multiple classes for the coming months.

A rundown of the courses I took:

  • Intro to Tarot- a six-week course. Learning with all the tarot basics plus you get to earn money while taking the course. It legit tells you that Tarot IS JUST A GUIDE. You make your own future. Mysterium tells its Tarot students to empower their clients and to never doom them to a future they don’t want.
  • Intuitive awakenings -want to enhance or “open your third eye.” You get a rundown on chakras, auras, and how to connect to your intuitive side. You’ll learn how to see, hear, feel, or see things you don’t normally see, oh and how you can ignore them when you want to.
  • Tarot for Self Discovery- a whole day workshop. It helps you use tarot to talk to your unconscious. *bring tissues, you might cry.
  • Advanced Tarot -a lot like Tarot for Self Discovery but it introduces new ways to use tarot besides just reading it. *pre- req intro to tarot. 7 week course.
  • Advanced Intuitive Awakening- you watched Doctor Strange? it’s kinda like that. you learn about astral projection. *drink lots of water and get lots of rest it’s a bit tiring.
  • Seraphim Blueprint level 1- the first in the Philippines (THANK YOU, SARAH!) a healing modality that works with angels. It’s a whole day thing with lots of meditation/attunements. *no coffee before class and drink lot of water in between.
  • Reiki 1- an intro and an attunement of one of the most popular energy healing modalities. It teaches how to channel energy for self-healing and healing for others. * drink lots of water between the breaks.

Sir Rob is hilarious and frank. He would tease us if we asked weird questions, but he would answer them and then he would tell us his experiences. He’s been reading the tarot for more than 20 years, so he has a lot to share with us. He became a friend to all of us as well. He would encourage us to start our own tarot business and damn right he would help you too if you have problems.

Ma’am Sarah is different from Sir Rob, she’s absolutely caring and sweet. My first class with her was Seraphim Blueprint level 1. To see someone as passionate in helping and healing other people,  she gave me the reason to look into energy healing. She showed me how compassion and empathy connects us all. She’s like the mom of Mysterium.

*btw Sir Rob and Ma’am Sarah are married to each other. Such a beautiful couple. Love emojis!!!

Mysterium Philippines is a great esoteric learning center, you get teachers who are legit supportive and you get to meet people with the same interests while learning. I felt so accepted and I made new friends. They made my 2016 the best.

contact Mysterium here:



Mysterium Philippines Learning Center
Mezzanine Unit, Burgundy Place Condominium
Katipunan Ave., Cor. B. Gonzales St., Quezon City



Shitty poetry – 2am 

I’m a prude. There I said it. Nobody thinks about me or people like me except when they want to play.

I’ve never been to parties. I’m always in the lib, trying to keep my head down. Hiding behind friends. Friend.

I hide the jealousy with responsibility, but it comes off as me being a prude. Why can’t be like them?

Blindly having fun with guns and knives. They enjoy beer with bloody hands. Lights would the only thing I would enjoy with them.

I will never pull them to where I am, but it isn’t fair for them to trap me here. Alone in the dark with the monsters. I need light.

All The Bright Places By Jennifer Niven

This is a book review.

To start it off All The Bright Places is about two teens who met in a bell tower. Finch and Violet find themselves doing a project together; they need to find wonderful things in their state of Indiana. Slowly a romance builds while they’re wandering.

It’s a tale of grief, mental illness, and love.

I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH THAT I FUCKING RELATE TO FINCH. I’m glad that someone wrote Finch as well as Niven did. She did her research. What Finch was feeling, the black hole, the need to hurry about doing things…. It’s real. I felt those too. I could relate to Violet as well… The grieving part. It’s hard to move on and still want to remember your loved one.

Yes the plot is a bit predictable, that’s why I let myself not devour it because I knew it would break my heart. It did. I really wanted to cry but I was out in public so I didn’t.

This book is amazing and I can’t wait to have my copy signed soon.

Read this book. You won’t regret it.

Shitty Poetry 2016

You are all I remember.
The sound of your voice.
How your hair sticks out.
That smile you rarely give out.
I miss you, my love.
Where did you go?
You left me in the middle of the desert where we found our oasis.
Our paradise does not exist anymore because you left.
I’m still searching for you, my love.
Please let me see you through my blindfold.


If you want to get to know me or whatever please be informed by the following:

*Even if we spend time together for years, please know that I’m keeping secrets from you.

*I’m allergic to Mushrooms

*I can be emotional… sometimes.

*I will apologize for everything and anything.

*I have walls around me 24/7. They collapse every now and then.**

*I really like pizza.

Here’s your guide.


** If you’re the kind of person that can break people’s walls… Fuck you and good for you. Use that well, don’t be an asshole.


Love Lies Beneath by Ellen Hopkins

I bought this book, because of Ellen Hopkins ( my fave author). Her books are my salvation and I couldn’t wait to get my hands on this novel.

The story is in the POV of Tara, a woman in her forties who doesn’t believe in love and treats almost everything as a business deal. She meets Cavin Lattimore and now she tries the concept of Love.

okay, so this book is a guilty pleasure. this is not a good book from Ellen Hopkins. Her style was different in this one and the character was unintentionally funny. The ending was a bit of a shock, but it felt forced in a way. I compare this book as if reading your fave smut novel, you can’t put it down but you know it’s not good.

I still love Ellen Hopkins, but I think I’ll stick to her YA novels.

Shitty Poetry Pt. Everybody

An apple a day keeps the doctor away

                                                  that’s what they say, it’s bullshit.

Next they’ll tell me the bottle will make me better

it doesn’t, it locks me in a cage. They call me

Xanthippe. a word that describes how I am

to them, most of the time.

I don’t disagree, I have something inside me.

More than Angst, More than Anger. I don’t understand.

Everyone says it’s all in my mind

Fuck that, it isn’t.

To call them blind is part of my message

and another is

“You’ll not find Peace but Entropy in me.